I feel like no matter what I say about this book it won't be enough to express how important, moving, powerful, heartbreaking, beautifully written, and filled with hope it is.
Shaun David Hutchinson tells his story of coming to realize he is gay, what that means, how to feel about it, how it fit in with his depression, his suicide attempt, and his coming to terms with a life that hasn't been easy but thankfully is still being lived. To lay open ones struggles and faults out in the open is one of the most courageous things a person can do and Shaun does it without trying to make himself out to be anything other than what he was and is. There are moments of being able to see his sense of humor even as he writes about the pain and suffering he is feeling. There were moments I just wanted to hug him and tell younger him to hang in there, he will make it, and will be a writer someday, a published in real books and not just on the internet writer.
I was so impressed with the level of detail he gives his reader about what he was feeling both about himself and others. What was so heartbreaking was how he was so sure that others were thinking awful things about him, from his looks to his personality, mostly because society had so ingrained it into the minds of people that being Queer was a dirty and ugly thing to be. No one judges Shaun as harshly as he judges himself and it leads him down the path of trying to end his own life.
I feel like no matter how much I go on it won't be adequate so I will just say READ THIS BOOK!!!
(Finished June 9, 2019)
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